Your breath is getting short You feel the impulse To turn around You don’t want to vanish Uncontrollable sadness dominates your mood You want to see it all with your own eyes You don’t want to vanish
You’re so afraid Scraping your hands with soap Another seizure You’re afraid To disappear
A million hands are touching you A million eyes are watching A million noses smelling you A million ears are listening to you
You feel that someone’s following you The air seems sticky and thick like glue You’re swinging around in anxiety Fearing you might disappear You’re afraid that someone will touch you You can’t believe this nightmare is true You’re experiencing a seizure Fearing you might disappear
This black day has come again Everything’s a mess All is dead in your head No one will see a thing When you disappear You are feeling down
Sometimes it disappears And life seems less austere No need to turn around Your life seems less austere You’re not afraid
2. Irreversible
[lyrics: Maja Konarska]
Let’s take a shortcut through the woods today It may be dangerous but please take me there When something happens to us for the second time It doesn’t frighten as much as the prime
And when somebody dies Let him pass away Your sorrow is needless Please understand You cannot sleep today Don’t you forget It’s best to hide a leaf In the woods
You started dreaming but now it’s time to forget And in the woods you’ll find a gift someone will get Even the slightest sound will lead you to a clue All those incredible things, I will get them from you
3. Pati
[lyrics: Maja Konarska]
And just as you desired Here I am again Too long have I been waiting For this day Tell me how it happened ‘Cause I don’t know And I’m so different from them Don’t you know? You interrupt my thinking And your own I understand a lot more Than I want to I have to spit it out All this rage Although you see it happen You run away
I want to trust in my patience Can’t hear the words No matter how I try Looking upon my past experience I want to trust in my patience once again
All you need is A single word Say it only Once for me I want to trust in My patience again
4. Into My Hands
[lyrics: Maja Konarska]
Your destination is too far Not so easy to rise You’re too feeble to get up Closing your eyelids so tight
Another day has come Stealing the light from your eyes Still to weak to rise (It’s) just as if the world Was blackening within your self You’re too blind too see
With every step and every word So many answers are emerging If you cannot understand them Let me deal with everything With every step and every word Many answers Think about it once again
5. Insomnia
[lyrics: Maja Konarska]
Like every night, your mind won’t let you rest. You want it. He doesn’t. And time keeps running out. Like your blood aging with heartbeat. So you keep asking me how to deal with it.
Don’t fight with time cause it’s running. And run with it.
It’s night again, your mind won’t let you rest. You want it. He doesn’t. And time keeps running out. Just like your blood, aging with each heartbeat. So you keep asking me how to deal with it.
6. My Own Words
[lyrics: Maja Konarska]
My fear is reflected in my own words My entire life is flashing in my mind My entire world
The whole world right before my eyes
7. Pill
[lyrics: Maja Konarska]
Maybe you will finally understand me Maybe you just need some more time to think You cannot see me I’m hiding too deep But somehow you feel me under your skin
You trust in me even more than I do Now I am aware My time is up, my destination Is running away I choke on every word I utter I can’t stand All those mistakes I keep on making Every day
You’re like a pill that relieves my suffering And I can swallow you every day Again I desire to keep my eyes wide open Each time your light penetrates my spirit
8. Circus
[lyrics: Maja Konarska]
For the first time your senses deceive you All is deranged inside of your head You cannot tell the lies from the real world Your disease makes you feel so bad
You only hope you’re living a crazy dream The slightest move is just too much for you Paralyzed you begin to feel cold All you hear is this unfamiliar noise
You refuse to understand This isn’t life, isn’t death The struggle with yourself Is no longer possible
For the first time your senses deceive you All is deranged inside of your head You cannot tell the lies from the real world You only hope you’re living a crazy dream
