Foul voices welcome me to loneliness Graceful tunes on her lips have now ceased This winter's here to surpass all the hopes And dreams succumb to nightmares and freezing air
Now lonely is my road, path paved with bitter thoughts Conception of beauty excluded from this heart Within closed doors no-one speaks, behind barred windows no soul lives As I walk the soil beneath my feet is crumbling...
She was my sun and now the light has faded away Night condensing around me, leading astray Shining image torn down, remembrance of her fades Left but anguish and shame to haunt me in the shades
Should I be content with the memory of the life I had? Or is the Hell knowing what we could have beome? - Quite indifferent as the tides of time have now turned And the past is buried in a drift of whirling snow
...White sheet covering all things left behind...
And from now on there's an abscence of hope...
She was my sun and now the light has faded away Night condensing around me, leading astray Shining image torn down, remembrance of her fades Left but anguish and shame to haunt me in the shades
So be it, perdition is my home, Since the day it all came down
3. Daughter Of The Moon
Trail amidst the snow-clad trees, winding is the way Sunless is the path we roam, bitter is the air we breathe Fell is the icy blast, coming from the hills Blowing through my ailing heart, wailing in the emptiness inside
Vanished is the light we had, hidden deep in rimy soil Bereft of us the one we cherished, lost for ever our love
Still at night I see her figure Flickering on moonlit glades But passing is the hope she_s giving Just a faintest breath of air and she_s gone again
The clouds are moving heavily, across the livid sky Yonder the hues are darkening, slowly turning grey to black For the two who stray in dusk, all hope is long since gone Cruel is the winter_s reign, merciless the grasp of despair
For what mirth there is left in life for a motherless son What solace in this world for a widower to find
Slender the shape in night, unbearable the beauty Shining in the silvery light, watching me with wistful eyes Evanescent this vision, unattainable this illusion But an image in my troubled dreams, hewn out of yearning and rue
4. The Moment Of Reckoning
If I only could I would Change everything
Today is the day, the moment of reckoning For too long I've been hiding this truth within my chest Today is the day when I will come clean Answer for my deeds and stand up for my faint-heartedness
If I only could I would change everything Let the suffering be mine and only mine for this time
In your time of need I betrayed you When I should have watched over you I walked away Now there are two straying souls weak in faith
In your time of need I left you When I should have been strong I turned my back on you Now there are two straying souls about to break
When there now are two of us alone There's not anymore anyone alone
Today is the day when I will face you at length You my child have wept enough far too long swallowed your hate Today is the day when I will promise to myself Take care from you I've been running away and with for so many years
If I only could I would change everything Let the suffering be mine and only mine for this time
5. Bereavement
Would you come and share My cross, my pain, my heartbroken nature For this burden is too heavy to bear Too troublesome for one man to handle
Since my darkness swallowed The last gleam of light I've been rambling in the shadows Hour after hour in the dark
They who never got sorrow, Grinding grief in their hearts Never lost a thing, Never had a thing
They who never witnessed beauty, That flamed even the all-encompassing night Never lost a thing, Never had a thing
Now these bitter tears run ceaseless, And drown my hope far too deep It must've been the day we parted When I trapped this sadness in me
Since my darkness swallowed The last gleam of light I've been clothed in mourning, Wearing sorrow day and night
6. Under The Plaintive Sky
And so does the downhearted tune Resound through this murky night And the wind groan its wistful song For the ill-lucked dwellers in plight
These two round-shouldered figures Forward slowly through this grey day Under the fores'ts white canopy Out of the drifting snow's way
With rime dressed-faces they wander With guilt carved-hearts they flee With grim stained-minds they hover Between hope and despair
With rime dressed-faces they wander With guilt carved-hearts they flee With grim stained-minds they ponder If they ever be free of their sins
May the stars become my eyes And the wind become my hearing Let them guide us through These pitch-dark mornings
May the snowfall end And the shining moon rise So we can find our way out From these all-consuming nights
Underneath the blanket of stars Embraced by another cold night Two round-shouldered figures Leave these shores behind
Quietly they wonder If they ever will see the light They now lose in their shadows Owe to the darkest of nights
7. Resonance
8. Death Walked The Earth
Brought back from the silence As darkness whitened into a day Tried to weave the pieces together Force the past away
Mind weary of sorrow Body tired from the way Welcomed yet another morning Of longing and dismay
What have I for you to offer Besides this long haul Wade across vast snowfields Journey through endless moors
Death walked the earth today Without a sound, motionless Forced its way into my arms Caressed me with the dark
Dragged again up to surface From the bowels of the earth To face yet another morning Breath gasping black steam of death
These are our waking hours In cold sunlight we pine away Towards yet another morning Till following hopeless day
9. Disengagement
What solemnity can be found in this death? A traitor's smile, the honour of betrayal
How comfort could be found in the dreariest of nights? What solace for guilt-driven mind, tarnished heart? Two crestfallen figures clinging together in fathomless dark In maelstrom of despair dimming each other's shine
And half of his blood runs like mine - kindred spirit to me But the gleam in his eyes remind of the one who is gone forever
When dreams carry me past this life, to thin shrouding mist I rest in silence, in place lifeless and desolate
Long are midwinter's nights as the will to live has died Evanescent the unwarming light, evoking memories of life - Of the life long lost, buried in ashes of love and joy
And half of his blood bleeds like mine - kindred spirit, yet free But the gleam in his eyes abates for my guilt shackles him too
What sublimity can be found in this love? Weakling's trust, the moral of deceiver
There's no future for a son under this burden of grief No leading to walk aside this tormented ghost Two crestfallen figures clinging together in fathomless dark In maelstrom of despair father suppressing the only shine
As the end is slowly looming our paths must now diverge Pressure slowly easing, shackles unchained, uplifting
Beyond many a weary league Where dimming light gives birth to evening stars At the treelines of distant, devouring woods Await my demons, embodying this longing
Better to sleep now on stranger's porch, find home on foreign soil Brighter the sun to a forsaken child than to a father in despair Disencumbered from this grief with the most cruel way Deserted to be alone, abandoned to be free
10. Closing Words
This will be for now and for ever the diverging of our paths...
Now that this night has turned into a dawn I step aside from this path of grieving Left with all these things I never had chance to say Words wishful, filled with caring
You must stop your bleeding Before you run yourself dry You must let go of your wound Because love it is crying for is gone
Now that this night has turned into a dawn I give up this life I have been leading Left with all these things I never meant to say Words deceitful, double-dealing
As every breaking day fades away before the dusk So does hate pause and resentment turn to reason You've carried enough this burden meant only for me to bear Now it's your time to straighten up, time for you to walk tall Alone...
11. Song Of The Forlorn Son
Wretched is my lot here, mirthless is my fate Alone to face the cruel winters, endure the dreary cold What is there to hope for, what is there to seek For this forsaken child, for this forlorn son
Whose sins am I now atoning for? Whose lapses am I forced to undo?
So echoes my tune through these darkling shaws Above the frozen streams resounds my song Only these sullen trees will hearken to me Only snow-bound hills ever hear my call
What is there to hope for, what is there to seek For this forsaken child, for this forlorn son For this embittered man, for this grim castaway
Solace I find in the light of the pale moon My comfort in the night the murmur of the trees Now I set forth without ever glancing back It is time to make my own way through the dusk
